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Celebrating 45 Months

• Update:  Started a pumping cycle in an effort to try to induce lactation. I figure this may help my breasts fill out a bit.  I have notice a slight increase in my nipple size and a little more tenderness. One other thing is that it just feels so good on my nipples..

• Update:  My breasts seem to have lost their tenderness so I have add 200mg of Micronized progesterone a day to my regime to see if I can get that feeling back in my breasts.  Hopefully it will also fill them out a bit.

• Update:  I celebrated my 3 year anniversary of being on hormones in November. I feel great and have never looked back.

• Update: Nothing really new...just update the pics from a few I took over the weekend.  let me know if you can see the changes.

• Update: The tenderness is back with a vengeance and I can feel some growth again (gained a half inch in my bust).  The one problem I seem to be having is weight gain. I have to  really start watching what I eat and make sure I get some exercise in.

• Update: back to Premarin again. taking two .625 mg with 100 mg of spiro. when I was on Progynova I seemed to have lost all the tenderness in my breasts.   The funny thing is I miss the tenderness as it made me aware something was happening there.  It been a few weeks but the tenderness still isn't there like it was before but I keep hoping. 

• Update: Seem to be developing a fascination with lactation, again I have had a few more dreams where my breast are producing milk...I have always thought of that as very fem and very erotic. These dreams are very vivid and seem so real. Before I started hormones I had dreams where I was male but dressed as a girl and interacting with various family members. Then about the time I started on hormones, I always am a female in my dreams....Now I guess my mind is taking it one step further. Wonder if "Mind over Matter" works?

• Update: The Progynova seems to be working as I continue to round out, My breasts are starting to feel tender again. Not sure if its the hormones but lately my dreams have been very vivid almost as if they were real. When I wake up in the middle of one, it takes a second or two to realize it was just a dream. I have had a few dreams now where I was lactating. When I woke up from that one I had to check to make sure my top wasn't wet. Also I'm starting to loose a little weight... I want to drop at least 15 lbs.

• Update: In-House was out of stock of Premarin so I decided to use Progynova, it is suppose to be very similar to Estrofem. I had to wait about 10 days before my order came in so when it arrived I double the dosage for a week taking 4mg a day, now I'm back to 2mg a day. Ill let you know how it is working.

• Update: the pics with my new camera. a little better quality and resolution  

• Update: Sorry for the photo quality but I thought using my video cam would be better than nothing. as you can see there has been growth over the last few months. Hopefully I will have a new digital camera soon.

• Update: Sorry I haven't updated this is a while, but my digital camera is not working and I wanted to post some more pics with the updates but I haven't replace the camera as fast as I thought I would. So this will only be a text update. Almost a full 22 months now and I continue to develop. The growing pains in my breasts subsided for a while but the tenderness is back now and I have seen the tops of my breasts taking on a much more feminine shape and they are projecting out more, which when I wear the correct bra gives me ample cleavage. I also found that cleavage seems to help my confidence quite a bit. My butt also seems to be getting a much more feminine shape as half my pants no longer fit in that area. Overall and Emotionally, I feel great and there have been no side effects. Hopefully I will update the pics soon, so please bear with me.

• Update: Breast tenderness is back and although the measurements are not any bigger they are fuller.

• Update: Changed from Estrofem to Premarin for a change. taking the 1.25mg tab per day plus 75mg Spiro a day.

• Update: Wow I added up the months and I have been on hormones now for 16 months!! Where does time go? I have been feeling great and seeing some more progress. I added Spiro last November and since them it seems that my breasts have begun to feel a little fuller. I can actually wear low cut blouses and show a little cleavage. Still functional but it takes a little longer to get in the mood if you know what I mean.

• Update: Its been almost a year now since I started and my breast are still tender. As you can see there is some development,

• Update: Its been almost a year now since I started and my breast are still tender. As you can see there is some development, Prior to starting my bans size was a 38 and my bust was a 40 and my nipples were very flat, almost inverted. Now my band size is a 36 and my bust is almost a 42. As you can see my nipples are much more pronounced and appear almost puffy.

• Update: Breasts are still growing but now I have also noticed that my butt is also developing a more fem shape. I wasn't really watching the changes there but one day I just noticed my reflection and was amazed at how round it had become.. Starting to have my own little bubble butt!!

• Update: Now at the 8 month mark. Changed back to Estrofem, still 2mg a day. Just prefer the natural hormone less risk and just feel better when I take it. Bottom Pictures - my breasts are starting to show a through a tight t now...Nipples are pushing outward and my areola is cone shaped making them extend even further out.. The bra is a 38B but still have room left in the cups. My current measurement is 36" band and a little over a 41 Bust.

• Update: Now at the 6 month mark. Changed from Estrofem to Prempro (a combination of Premarin and Provera) since I wanted to add a progestin to my regime. Found that Prempro was only about half the dosage of Estrogen as Estrofem. Then I also found that they are a lot of reported side effects to Prempro. I will return to Estrofem as soon as the new order arrives. I should have know better and stick to what works. 

• Update: Now at the 5 month mark . My breasts are still very tender all the time and I can feel the breast buds underneath my nipples as they grow. Unfortunately I seem to have gained a few unwanted pounds...looks like I will have to start some exercises to stay in shape. Check for updated photos!

• Update: Now at the 3 month mark and I see a few changes. My once flat chest now has some slight curves to it. My new breasts are very tender all the time. Other things I have noticed, my skin seems a lot dryer, maybe even softer, when I shave my body hair seems to take a lot longer to grow back, and I have gained a full inch in my thigh measurement without putting on any weight. 

Luv to you all

Sandi

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After 2 and a half years you can see my shape is definitely changing!

The Chart at the right is from Transgender care -Trans Log provides a database application for recording body measurements and medications as a freeware.

Frequently Asked Questions (FAQ)

I thought I would add this section for questions you would like to ask me. Please feel free to email me with your questions and I will answer it, the best I can. If you have any questions Email them to me  at SandiMari

• 1. Are you married?  Yes to a very loving and supportive wife for over 25 years.

• 2. Where I get my hormones?   Not advocating their use but just answering the question is I get them from In-house Pharmacy.

• 3. For a wealth of information on Hormones check out the TsDoItYourselfHormones Group at Yahoo

• 4. Are you Full Time?  No not yet.  I would love to go full time but I have a job where coming out would be impossible right now.  Not to say I will not in the future but not possible right now.

• 5. Do you like men?  No I'm straight and love women.

• 6. How did you develop your nipples?  For me my nipples were one of the first things I noticed changing when I started on hormones, but then again my nipples were always erotic for me.  After a few months on hormones I found out about using suction to enhance nipple growth. One method I have tried is a snake bite kit. by applying suction.

• 7. So how do you hide your breasts. Some people have not come out yet and if you are on hormones it can be difficult to explain the new developments on your chest.    Believe it or not, There are undergarments you get buy specifically for that purpose. T Shirt that hide your breasts and Vests to be worn under your shirt

Photos

I have updated my page and put the "before" photos to the left and the "after" photos to the right.  I tried to match the photos from a year ago to be able to better show the changes.

January 2004

June 2007

Definite Growth Notice the Changes in Areolas and  nipple size

Flat Nipples and Areolas

Fuller Breasts with Cone Shaped Areolas

Breasts are starting to project outward - current measurements are 36" for the band and 43' for the bust

 You can see the breasts starting round out to a more female shape

 This picture really shows the changes and growth in my areola and nipples

There is a lot more going on in the top section of my breasts

The Tanner Stages of Breast Development.

I believe that at this point I have reached stage 3

According to RipeFish.com's Boob Survey, my breasts are 30% smaller than average and 67% average in features. That makes them 68% average overall. They were rated Love Apples (49/100) by the Boobage Factor machine. Find out how average yours are!

Other Changes

My butt has become much more rounded taking on a more feminine shape, causing my pants to fit a little tighter in the butt and to my pleasure a little looser in the waist.  The pic with the red panties is the latest and as you can see it is rounding out!

Women's Clothing Sizes fit much better on me now , soon I will have to ask "does this make me look fat?"

With the right bra and the right top even a 36A can  show a little cleavage!!  What a confidence builder it is too!  The black bra is a 36B and it is starting to fill up now.

My Nipples have really grown, at least the size of a pencil eraser now... my Areolas haven't grown as fast but they are larger than a quarter now but they definitely have become puffy

My breasts are now becoming quite noticeable, and my topless beach days seem to be over. Even from the side profile and I can actually start to feel them hang when I'm on my knees,  For a while the tenderness went away but it is back with a vengeance now...I think they might be growing again.

Facial Feminization Surgery (FFS)

I know this page is most     ly about me but I have a dear friend that recently had FFS and I know that is a topic of conversation.  Charlene had the FFS surgery at the beginning of this year and if you have any questions about the procedure she is the one to ask. You can contact her at charlene@sandimari.com  or Chat with her on Yahoo  look for florida_charlene

You Can definitely see that FFS Surgery Made a difference on Charlene.

Click Here to Visit my Breast Page.